Last night was probably the most odd night I have had in quite some time. Sarah and Virginia came over and we spent the night making ninja sugar cookies, texting a friend, and watching Popper's Penguins. (Which is the best movie ever... especially when you are on a sugar high.) So besides sliding back into a friendship that has been mildly distant for one reason or another, it was like all my friends had never gone their separate ways.
I had heard once that about every 7 years your friends are completely different. And that its a rarity to keep the same friends for 7 years. I never used to think that was true until I looked back and thought about it. I have a few people that I would call friends that have been around 7 years or more. However, at one point or another we stopped all contact or had a fight or something had happened.
I have always been a hater of that thing people like to call "change". It could be good change and I still wouldn't enjoy it. I don't like people leaving, getting married, moving away, changing who they hang out with... I just don't enjoy it. So when I experience change I sometimes freak out. Sometimes it isn't so bad. But mostly I get all moody and act like a child. I scrapbook and journal because at least in my memories it will always be the same. Saving memories has become so important for me. (Walmart photo will always be in business because I will always have new photos to print out, digital files have a shorter shelf life when compared to physical photographs.)
I have a scrapbook which has been recording the years I have spent in the YSA ward. It was the best idea I have ever had. When I look back I see that I hung out with certain people more often than others during different times of the year. And in those photo's I have no resentment for them moving on with their lives, or changing. But in person its a totally different story. So when I hung out with my friends last night it was odd to feel like nothing had changed.
It's 2012 and I will be 22 years old in March, and I have decided what my new year resolution/goal will be. (Yes I know its a week into the year... sue me ;) ) I will attempt (No guarantees) to accept change this year. I will move on from the angst I have and the regret I have. I will attempt to forgive people who have hurt me, and forget those who have been repeat offenders. I will express my love for my friends in ways that will blow their minds, and make sure they know how much I really appreciate them.
Hopefully that made sense. I got to get back to my sewing. (going to be making a makeup bag because mine apparently is too small.)
Love Always,
Cambria Lee
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