Love is definetly in the Air.

Hello gorgeous people! Sundays are some of the best days. At church it was amazing to see all the people there even though many of them were with their families after all it is Father's day. So a couple in my ward just got engaged, and I am beyond happy for them :) I wish them well and can't wait to go to the reception and see them on their happy day. Also, a few other couples have gotten engaged that I am friends with. It is quite nice to see happy people who aren't all over each other like being with someone is going out of style. It is one of thoses things I doubt I will ever get used to. It's almost disguisting how some people have no respect for themselves and are showing off private matters.

Beyond that, I got a new camera so I may be able to now SHOW some of the wonderful things that I see and some of the wonderful people I know.. With possible name changes.. ;)

Random segway.. I went to the fair on friday. It was AMAZING this wonderful band played ( Good Morning Milo ) in the musicpalooza at the San Diego County Fair (Del Mar Fair). Sadly they didn't win but thats life, sometimes judges don't appreciate good music and good fans. But they totally rocked the stage and I got some nice shots of them doing what they do best. The picture above to the left is the lead singer Weston. And below here is the band that consists of Peter, Ivan, Ren (Lauren), Weston, Dallen, and Jonathan. The band beyond rocks and has some amazing songs. And its all Clean music. Which is far and few between now a days. So check them out!

So the Fair was lovely beyond that, the art was gorgeous, the livestock.. well alive. and the food AMAZING. Deep fried klondike bar... Sooo yummy.

Well its about time I head to bed, I have a doctors appointment early in the morning since i popped out my knee cap and its in severe pain.

Until Next time..

Love ya!

Dance, Dance, DANCE!

So today there will be a dance for the SD YSA Confrence!!! Oh yeah guys I'm LDS.
Okay no boo's and hisses please. I promise you, I am normal.. er... Well.... Sane.. ish. Okay so I'm off my rocker. But that doesn't stop my epicness. Yes I am EPIC. Well, today is june gloom like. It's very unlike San Diego. I do believe yesterday it was what I needed, but today? Really? One day is enough for me to get over the majority of things. But there is still some anger left in me...
Hopefully this dance will fix it like duct tape. Oh how that fixes EVERYTHING. Especially the silver type. Gotta love me some duct tape.
Today has consisted of :

• Waking up to take out the trash. (this has become a pattern that I REALLY don't like.)
• Taking a shower. ( to feel clean from taking out the trash (: )
• Calling around to find a ride for tonight (I broke my car.. alternator is out :( )
• Running up to Kaiser (THE DEVIL OF ALL HOSPITALS) for mom's meds.
• Getting $$ from ATM for tonight.
• Coming home and crashing on the couch.

And that's where today is. So I noticed that this man and woman were signing to each other. The sad thing is I like easedropped* on their conversation. Which is really easy when you know sign language (or some of it.) I personally don't think they were fluent because the guy knew most of the signs where the girl was failing miserably. But earlier she was talking about how she's the MOH for her friends wedding. Which pretty much brought back some less then pleasant feelings. But when the girl left she tripped and hit her arm against the door frame pretty hard. Soo that made up for it. In a sad sadistic way.

So today I've noticed I am MEAN. A friend was asking for guy advice and every thought I had was to in some way make him pay for the way he was making her feel. Which is not right, though it would make her feel better in the moment. Me and my friend Megan have a thing we say when boys hurt us or our friends... "cut off their shlongs and set them on fire, babe and everything will be all right." Now if we were to actually practiced what we preached there would be a whole lot of shlongless men and quite a few assult charges. Could you imagine that? I know epic idea for the bitter and hatred filled women we all know and love (myself included... ;) ) Oh I kinda talked to Becky. She texted me to see if we were still on for Saturday piano lessons. Which of course I'm not since I will be attending the confrence. So I was extremely erked that she could text me and act as if she didn't make a life altering decision that she in no way included her FORMAL MOH. So I sorta brought it up after she asked me how I was. (brain at this point was screaming how the heck do you think I am.. I was just lied to by one of my BEST friends..) So I told her I was pissed with her. But then a few texts later added that I wasn't pissed as much as I was hurt and upset. And Asked her if she was busy later this week. To which I recieved a reply we can go to dinner or something.

I don't necessarily think dinner is going to solve anything. I unlike her husband *shudders* am not one to refrain from making a scene in public. What do I have to lose.. a little bit of pride? Yeah right! I've got enough to fuel the world. If my pride could be measured in a liquid it would cover the world a few times over. Embarassing me is a hard thing to do. But I may take her up on that dinner date of sorts. Except I couldn't eat so we will probably go sit in the park so that if I get too upset I can leave.

Well, it's about time for me to leave for the dance, or at least get ready for it since I'm going over to my friends girlfriend's house... (I am too awesome of a friend for this haha)

Hope your lives aren't as much drama filled as mine.

See ya on the flipside.

Really now?

about.Okay since no one knows about this blog, or well at least I don't think people do..

I've been upset the past day or so. Nothing that really concerns me in a sense but still it's one of thoses things that hurt your pride and your trust.

So Becky got engaged a while back and broke it off later because of things that are not my place to talk about. Personally I was beyond proud that she would stand up for her self and not take the crap and pressure she was under. Things were pretty rough at first for her and I totally understand that. Breaking off an engagement is a huge deal and it comes with many trials and strains on friendships and relationships and just your own mental judgement is at stake.

Well it had been about a month or so and things seemed to be dying down on the ex-fiance front. And then all of a sudden on Facebook there it is. Becky and Anton are married. Well look at that folks... a wedding that no one knew about. Okay it's kind of eloping. No big deal. Especially if you spent you time on helping plan a wedding and planning a bridal shower, OH and your money on an ugly dress you'll never wear and things for a shower that you will never use. And to add insult to injury you weren't called before to say "Hey we are getting married" or after "hey sorry you weren't invited but we got married." nope. You found out Via FACEBOOK. Okay that's not true. You found out through a flurry of text messages asking how the wedding was and why no one else was told. Or when it happened, or why they have been telling everyone they haven't been dating.

I have a reason to be upset and even if I didn't I can be upset without a reason. It's like being backstabbed and lied to. Betrayal is a great word that describes how I feel. It's as if the time I spent helping was spat on. And being a slapped in the face. At the same time...

So in all I've lost one of my best friends. I doubt I can ever trust her again, and my lacking in confidence in her decisions don't help at all. And regardless of her reasoning behind being sneaky and lying it still hurts. I wish I could say things don't change between friends when one gets married. But we all know that's a lie. Well I suppose I should just go suffer in silence... I'm going to wait until she calls me and tells me herself... Facebook just doesn't cut it.

Byes :)