Okay no boo's and hisses please. I promise you, I am normal.. er... Well.... Sane.. ish. Okay so I'm off my rocker. But that doesn't stop my epicness. Yes I am EPIC. Well, today is june gloom like. It's very unlike San Diego. I do believe yesterday it was what I needed, but today? Really? One day is enough for me to get over the majority of things. But there is still some anger left in me...
Hopefully this dance will fix it like duct tape. Oh how that fixes EVERYTHING. Especially the silver type. Gotta love me some duct tape.
Today has consisted of :
- Waking up to take out the trash. (this has become a pattern that I REALLY don't like.)
- Taking a shower. ( to feel clean from taking out the trash (: )
- Calling around to find a ride for tonight (I broke my car.. alternator is out :( )
- Running up to Kaiser (THE DEVIL OF ALL HOSPITALS) for mom's meds.
- Getting $$ from ATM for tonight.
- Coming home and crashing on the couch.
And that's where today is. So I noticed that this man and woman were signing to each other. The sad thing is I like easedropped* on their conversation. Which is really easy when you know sign language (or some of it.) I personally don't think they were fluent because the guy knew most of the signs where the girl was failing miserably. But earlier she was talking about how she's the MOH for her friends wedding. Which pretty much brought back some less then pleasant feelings. But when the girl left she tripped and hit her arm against the door frame pretty hard. Soo that made up for it. In a sad sadistic way.
So today I've noticed I am MEAN. A friend was asking for guy advice and every thought I had was to in some way make him pay for the way he was making her feel. Which is not right, though it would make her feel better in the moment. Me and my friend Megan have a thing we say when boys hurt us or our friends... "cut off their shlongs and set them on fire, babe and everything will be all right." Now if we were to actually practiced what we preached there would be a whole lot of shlongless men and quite a few assult charges. Could you imagine that? I know epic idea for the bitter and hatred filled women we all know and love (myself included... ;) ) Oh I kinda talked to Becky. She texted me to see if we were still on for Saturday piano lessons. Which of course I'm not since I will be attending the confrence. So I was extremely erked that she could text me and act as if she didn't make a life altering decision that she in no way included her FORMAL MOH. So I sorta brought it up after she asked me how I was. (brain at this point was screaming how the heck do you think I am.. I was just lied to by one of my BEST friends..) So I told her I was pissed with her. But then a few texts later added that I wasn't pissed as much as I was hurt and upset. And Asked her if she was busy later this week. To which I recieved a reply we can go to dinner or something.
I don't necessarily think dinner is going to solve anything. I unlike her husband *shudders* am not one to refrain from making a scene in public. What do I have to lose.. a little bit of pride? Yeah right! I've got enough to fuel the world. If my pride could be measured in a liquid it would cover the world a few times over. Embarassing me is a hard thing to do. But I may take her up on that dinner date of sorts. Except I couldn't eat so we will probably go sit in the park so that if I get too upset I can leave.
Well, it's about time for me to leave for the dance, or at least get ready for it since I'm going over to my friends girlfriend's house... (I am too awesome of a friend for this haha)
Hope your lives aren't as much drama filled as mine.
See ya on the flipside.
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