Really now?

about.Okay since no one knows about this blog, or well at least I don't think people do..

I've been upset the past day or so. Nothing that really concerns me in a sense but still it's one of thoses things that hurt your pride and your trust.

So Becky got engaged a while back and broke it off later because of things that are not my place to talk about. Personally I was beyond proud that she would stand up for her self and not take the crap and pressure she was under. Things were pretty rough at first for her and I totally understand that. Breaking off an engagement is a huge deal and it comes with many trials and strains on friendships and relationships and just your own mental judgement is at stake.

Well it had been about a month or so and things seemed to be dying down on the ex-fiance front. And then all of a sudden on Facebook there it is. Becky and Anton are married. Well look at that folks... a wedding that no one knew about. Okay it's kind of eloping. No big deal. Especially if you spent you time on helping plan a wedding and planning a bridal shower, OH and your money on an ugly dress you'll never wear and things for a shower that you will never use. And to add insult to injury you weren't called before to say "Hey we are getting married" or after "hey sorry you weren't invited but we got married." nope. You found out Via FACEBOOK. Okay that's not true. You found out through a flurry of text messages asking how the wedding was and why no one else was told. Or when it happened, or why they have been telling everyone they haven't been dating.

I have a reason to be upset and even if I didn't I can be upset without a reason. It's like being backstabbed and lied to. Betrayal is a great word that describes how I feel. It's as if the time I spent helping was spat on. And being a slapped in the face. At the same time...

So in all I've lost one of my best friends. I doubt I can ever trust her again, and my lacking in confidence in her decisions don't help at all. And regardless of her reasoning behind being sneaky and lying it still hurts. I wish I could say things don't change between friends when one gets married. But we all know that's a lie. Well I suppose I should just go suffer in silence... I'm going to wait until she calls me and tells me herself... Facebook just doesn't cut it.

Byes :)