Catching Up.

Why hello there. Happy late Halloween. I started a blog about this years Halloween. But alas trick or treaters showed up and I got stuck on door duty. Which was fine. The lacking in creative costumes bummed me out a bit but there were a few memorable ones. Like this teenager dressed up like a papa johns delivery boy. oh and this totally awesome mermaid (Homemade costumes make my heart swoon.)

Among the masses were tons of alice in wonderland characters, TONS of transformers and disney princess' and oodles and oodles of cute babies dressed in warm animal costumes.

Geeze I do enjoy Halloween. However it irks me that I am forced to see girls running around in their little slutty outfits. Like I want to see what you have hidden under that costume like piece of cloth. Nope, I'm pretty sure I don't. However the more guys that run around next to naked the happier I am. Now don't judge me. It's not my fault that I'm a sicko. Blame society.

Anywho, now that Halloween is over we can get onto more productive holidays. Like Thanksgiving!! Which is one of my all time favorite Holidays. Mostly because I am a huge fan of cooking turkey... and eating it. The one year we deep fried it, And that was crazy dangerous. It wasn't quite thawed out (mostly my dad's fault) And so it started popping and oil was getting everywhere. It was great. But I am not a fan of fried turkey. Then we bbq-ed a turkey the one year.. also not a fan. I've had burnt turkeys, and undercooked turkeys. But every year I make a turkey, it is perfection. And I am excited to do it this year. Possibly David will be gone, so that means I can cook it the way I want and without complaints. Heck I may even invite people over. But who knows.. it's still quite a ways away.

The weather is back to normal. I must admit I miss the cold. Being stuck in this box oven of a lobby is wretched. It makes me think of Little Caesars and how that was horribly hot. The one summer it was 135 inside and running around with hot pizza really didn't make it any better. Though I do have some very found memories of that job. Like Scott and Andy and Mike. Geeze, they were Nutts. And were probably the best thing about the job. But sadly I don't think I ever hung out with all 3 of them together. I hung out with Scott and Andy, and Andy and Mike. But Never Scott, Mike and Andy. The insanity would have been huge. It would've been to epic to describe. Considering I've almost died with all 3 of them on seperate occasions. Mike is still dating Stephanie. Which is odd. Andy is still with Elisia (Even odder.) and Scott.. well last I checked Scott was hanging out with one of Andy's old friends whose name never stuck with me longer then 5 minutes at a time.

Hmm So after Thanksgiving is Christmas (which I could totally live without.) I enjoy Christmas fine enough. But as soon as December rolls around I become a bit of a Debbie Downer. I never have an amazing Christmas. I did a couple of years back when I went up to Oregon to spend Christmas with Lawrence and his family. But I am not with Lawrence (thank heavens) and so I am staying home for Christmas this year. This year shall be a unique one to say the least. Last year I got to see some Family. Which was the best Christmas/Thanksgiving present I have ever gotten. And I am dying to see the kids again they are the cutest kids. And the little boy was hiliarious. He was afraid of Grr. And Grr wanted to love him up, but anytime she came near he would SCREAM. And run and hide. It was pure amazingness at its finest.

Well, I think I am done catching up. Even though I didn't really catch up, and spent the majority of time thinking of how awesome life has been since my dad died. It trully has been amazing the kinds of things have happened.
This time last year.. I was 19 years old. Was an Indian for halloween. Didn't have a thanksgiving dinner that I remember... Saw my extended family for the first time. And had a super small Christmas. This year. I was not really anything for halloween. And will be having a pimptastic Thanksgiving dinner, if not just for the fact that I will be doing it my way. And Christmas will be spent like I normal spend it. Giving presents to people who don't expect it. And going to bed early while listening to frank sinatra and some charlotte churck, after drinking too much eggnog (As if there is such a thing as too much eggnog)
Oh holiday season!! So wonderful, and delightful. And once winter is over. It will be the best time of year!!!!! GEEZE this year is going by ever so slowly but at the same time.. So very fast.

-Cam Bam .. Bam

Fire Season

I suppose I am odd because of my love for fire season. It is honestly like the only time there is actual things going on that matter. (unless you count shootings, those have always been high on my list, as long as people don't get killed) Anywho.. So first fire of the season in Santee. Which is not too far from me. Just down the freeway a bit. Thankfully it was on the far side of Santee, because I am not quite prepared to go in full on Fire Season mode. I still have time to go volunteer and help someone clean up their brush. Which I suprisingly enough enjoy doing, even though it is considered yard work.
Apparently someone did get hurt in the Santee fire. Smoke in the lungs so counts. (besides if they can't "handle" it now just wait until later)
I am pretty much betting on a darasticly* bad fire season this year. Our summer weather was way too tame for us to be having a tame fall. And if it is comparatively tame I will be biffed. Maybe a little bit suprised but mostly biffed.

In other news... I am talking to another old friend. This one is Travis Thomas. He is... well to say the least. Pretty amazing, super flakey, sweet, and a super stoner. Well he might not be a super stoner anymore. But he was. I saw him the otherday when I was hanging out with an old friend Adam. Which was so odd that I was hanging with him either. But it was so nice seeing both of them.. at the same time. So I did the logical thing and asked a mutual friend of mine and Travis's for his number, and suprisingly enough I got it. Which was pretty Pimptastic. So we have attempted to hang out like 3 times now. Each time has fallen through. So I don't have my hopes up to see him, or how he has changed. It's annoying that he is still flakey. Actually he may be worst then what he was. At least back then he made the time for me, and stuck to his commitments. There was none of this, I'll call you and then never call.
But it's to be expected. We can never be as close as we once were, and he obviously has changed so much that to expect that we could be what we were is ludacris.
I find it odd that this is a pattern in my life. I have certain guy friends that at one point have left my life for a long period of time. Like Jake, Adam, and Travis (to name a few important ones). And ALL OF THEM (so far) Have come back into my life. And it pisses me off to be quite frank about it. Seriously though, all of them have had a chance to be sweet as pie, and they have all screwed it up. But at some point they all come back and expect open arms. And I am the idiot who gives them what they want. and then regrets it later once they fall into a pattern...
Well lessons learned

Time for bed
goodnight

-cambria

What an amazing Saturday

Oh sweet love, in all its glory, and perfection. Last Saturday I had the pleausre of second shooting Jessica & Marcos Busby's Wedding. IT WAS AMAZING. The day started out pretty slow. I got to go and take pictures of Jessica getting ready and having her hair done.
Her hair was completely gorgeous as was her make up. But it was crazy early so I was super tired. My day started at 4:30am and didn't technically end until the next day but that was more on my part then anyone elses. I ended up leaving before the reception. But was there for the ring ceremony. It was done completely in spanish so I didn't understand a word of it. But you could definetly feel the love radiating from theses two wonderful people. So much love, and its not even springtime when all the lovebirds make me sick to my stomache. Which is a good thing. because early summer makes me "bitter" as many people like to put it. But I really am far from being bitter. Just easily disguisted.
In other news, the count down for the trip has begun. 8 days. :) I am way stoked. Too stoked, to the point it will be in utter disapointment. But that won't be the case I am sure. Because you can always "put money on the prophet".
Well its like 11 and I need to get up and actually get ready for work. Which sucks in so many languages. But then it's Friday, and one day closer to completely bliss.. until things fall apart.

Well Good day my sweet sweet buddies.
-Cambria Lee.

HA! rejection.

So for the first time in a Looooong time I was rejected.. It was quite magical. So considering I am totally not bummed about it, I am here to say, THERE ARE NICE WAYS TO REJECT PEOPLE.
However, I don't know any of thoses ways ;) Anywho the rejection wasn't "real" rejection. I just decided to kinda jump the gun a little earlier then I planned. So naturally a No was in order. But it was good. Geeze. And it got my feelings out there. I don't think I'll devulge more then that. But I found it to be quite an akwardly pleasant situation.

Which brings me to a totally new subject. I love the looks people are giving me recently. Some are the looks you get when you are hanging out with someone new. And some are just complete adoration. It might be because I am pretty happy, and when I am happy, everyone is happy. So beyond that. Nothing has been happening. Well, Hanging out with someone new makes people talk, and as much as I enjoy people talking, it makes building up friendships and relationships pretty hard. Which in turn makes me jump the gun. BUT as we said it last night. I grew some balls. Ha, that is such a gross phrase. And it suprised him as much as it did me. But I have never been shy about things. So why I was shy about this, was beyond me. hmm I should probably clarify a few things with that whole incident.. but alas, if I bring it up again, it may be as if I am pressuring. ughhhh



OH OH OH
Confrence trip is like NEXT week :) !!!!! Sooore excited. Beyond excited. Like words can not express my excited moments that I have when I think of the trip and all its glory that we will experience. If thats one thing that I am really going to enjoy, it will be getting to see our latter day prophet in person. Regardless of if its from a mile away. I am beyond excited. I may cry the whole time. The spirit will be so strong, and the testimonies will grow like no other. But I will be happy. Joyful really. We have more secure plans for the trip. And at this point, everyone has a ticket. Which makes it a 2981048019238019843290138209 times better. Even my little sister is going. Which can be a problem but I will be making an extreme effort for it to not be. (considering i'll be PMSing.. that may be hard.)

Well time to take the mother to her surgery. Sorry this was so random (to my one reader Chelsea.. ;) )

<3 Cambuckles ha haha

As the seasons change...

Everyone is going away to school it seems, which is totally awesome because some of my friends are on paths that 2 or 3 years ago would have never seemed possible. On Friday, I said 'goodbye' to Alina. She has grown sooo much since when I first met her. It has been a crazy long friendship full of hateful words, tears, hugs, and lots of laughter.

I remember the first time I met this girl. She was wearing some "dark" clothing to church one Sunday. And my jaw pretty much dropped. It seemed to me this girl had no respect for herself or for the fact that others weren't as dark and crazy as she seemed to be. You could tell there was something different about her. Not only did she has piercings in places other then ears. (Which I may never understand why girls get facial piercings.) But she wore a corset to church at like 14 years old. It was odd, so immediately I didn't like her. Then one day we were over at Becky's house, and we went and got Mexican food from El Compadres. Where I got to know this "rebel child". She wasn't half bad, but I could tell we had a ton in common, which is never a good thing.

Since then, we have had plenty of arguments over nothing, and sometimes over things that we have both chosen to never touch on. But there have been plenty of laughs. Many times over movies, hanging out with friends, random conversations, odd situations, and sometimes at the expense of each other.

There are many happy moments. Like hanging out laying in the grass at a volleyball tournement after a recieved phone call of babies on the way and her needing to wait to be picked up. Even in stressful situations laughter was found.

I have seen her grow from this rough hoodlum to a beautiful young woman with morals, and value. Someone who has respect for herself as well as others. Regardless of things shes done she has proven herself to be an amazing friend. Yes there have been arguments, and many tears of frustration, but she is my sister. A girl who has always been referred to as my mini-me. And as true as that may be there were many times when it wasn't. When I would do something and she would say I did the complete opposite of what she would've done. Or vice versa. She is a sister to me in many ways, and in the most important way, a child of god. Having to deal with each other through hard times has helped us both grow.

It seems that no matter what happens we have come back together and have put our pride aside and said sorry, sometimes out of frustration, and sometimes out of need. But always sincerly. I am gonna miss her so much. She has been a rock when I couldn't be. She was the shoulder to cry on when I thought I had everything figured out. She was a challenge to be better because I saw myself in her.

Thankfully she has turned out to be an amazing young woman. I hope she does Amazingly at BYU-IDo. Hopefully she doesn't marry Adam Danger..field, because my heart would break.. but if they do date or any of that junk I'll be a happy yet sad sad cookie. :)

Well time for sleep.

-Cambrizzle. (emilaaays nicknameforme.. not sure if i used it yet..)

ps. My locket arrived, and I am in looove with it.

You are old school baby.

I am sooo in love with my baby. My gorgeous Nikon. Soon I will be getting a new lense for her. She is so well behaved she deserves nothing but the best. So, today was eventful. (I told you I would post again soon.) I went to the mall, got some amazing smelling body mist. (PINK by victoria secret, the purple one and the light blue one.) They are kinda opposite smells, but I love them both. I got to spend time with Kelly. She is such a sweet girl, and I am quite glad she came, because I needed some time out of the house, in a nice Non-hot place. The Mall was crazy packed. Like super Crazy. But I saw some old friends that I hadn't seen in what seems like forever. Last time I saw them, they had just gotten married, and now they have a baby. It is crazy how things change so quickly.

So I really should get ready for church, I plan to go to the branch, but there is a good chance I won't. I should really start giving my ward a chance once again. But its sooooore hard to do. Everyone seems to have fallen into a stride, and mine is a totally crazy one, that no one seems to get. Oh well. So I really should be sedated at night, I am ADDICTED to ONLINE shopping. It's a horrible horrible habit. I just spent a good 100 dollars on an outfitt. But I did also get a pretty neat locket, which I am overjoyed for. But no more spending money for me. I have blazed through 300 some odd dollars WAY too quickly. I seriously need some form of an intervention. But thankfully, not many know of my habitt. Bwhaha.

I should get mad points for not buying from perpetualkid.com this week. Usually I am all about buying something new from them. This time its clothing, and well accessories. And earlier I spent money on getting some body spray. And lots of birthday presents for others. So, at least I'm not totally self-centered with my money. Though I should save some. Even if its just a little. Well, once again I am up at some crazy hour in the night. its 4:30 ish. I think there maybe in an issue with me, last sunday I got no sleep, this Sunday it appears that I am making this a habit. But it may also be the fact that my mom said as soon as I was done with the computer to bring it back into her room. And honestly, I don't want to get up to go do that. I just wanna pass out on my bed, and not deal with moving things, except for maybe the covers. Oh how trivial life can be. ;) In other news, there was a fire on my favorite road in Lakeside, which was sad beans. But hopefully it will get contained. Geeze. Okay time for bed, Yes this is short, but here.. look at my face. yes it is accompanied by Ashley C's face. But it was her birthday party that it was taken at. Geeze i love my swimsuit.

Pictures!!

Theses 3 gorgeous young ladies are Amazing. Jenessa (the far right) asked me to take some photos of her and her sisters. And I had such a fun time. It was hot out and we were on a time crunch, but they were a kick.

They live out in Chula, which is a good 30 minutes away from me, but we went to a near by park and took some amazing photos. They were more then willing to do anything, and had some pretty crazy expressions. I would love to shoot them again, once I refine my skill and get a new lense or 2.

The blonde (Jordyn) is the youngest and she was hiliarious with her face, and in general was plain gorgeous. Kaylee (the Redheaded one.) was crazy fun, and pretty much I am in LOVE with her hair. And then there is Jenessa (the dark brunette) She is Amaaazing. All 3 of them were super photogenic which is always a plus. Early on the comment was made that they were the girl version of the Jonas brothers. (At least in the fact of how they are dressed.)

They were extreme troopers. Playing in the water and many many jumping shots.

Not to mention, willing to deal with my unsureness of what would look good, and trying multiple directions so that there was no shadowing on their faces. It was beneficial for both of us. And I am happy to see the improvement in myself. And I am more then happy that they are happy with the final product. Next time I get with them its going to be when its kinda chilly out, because the heat was crazy. We started off down this little trail and it was super bright. Then we ended up in a little waterfountain for children. There were TONS of kids around, but thankfully they stayed out of the way, which really suprised me. Considering we were in the way of them playing in the big watery portions of the fountain.

Them in age order. Jenessa, Kaylee, Jordyn. GOooorgeous.

Well I may have another post in a few hours. I'm going to a friends party, and she wants me to take photos for her there. So there will be more :)

-Camsillia (Heather's nickname for me from girl scouts.)

Oh Sweet Insanity

Sweet, sweet insanity takes over it seems. Chelsea (since I expect you to read this sooner or later..) thinks I have gone insane, or at least that I am quite an angry person. Well in a way I kind of am, I do have lots to get angry about, but there is also plenty of things I am happy about, and really don't recognize as a happy thing. So today, err well this post, I am going to post some of the things that make me happy.

Starting now..

I Love taking photos, and am beyond blessed that I own a camera that works and provides me with the oppertunity to take pictures that really express how I see the world. I also extremely enjoy people who believe in me to make my photography take off. I am still very amature but I am learning, and am always open to take photos for whoever asks for them. Hopefully one day this will make me some money, but until then, I am content with just doing it for fun.

Also, I do enjoy being able to Skype with people who I care about. Like Andy here. He is in the Navy, and is currently stationed in Kuwaiit which is the equavalant to a sandbox. Its amazing how technology has brought the ability to be thousands of miles away and still be able to talk to each other which just a click of a button. HA and since I'm on the subject of Andy. He is an amazing guy, and one of the reasons I am completely fine with people joining the Navy. He has the cutest dog named Dakota. She is a doll, and while he is gone I miss her dearly, since she is at some friends house, until he gets back in November. Ha come to think of it, thats another thing I enjoy. I enjoy Homecomings. I Love having my friends return home. The leaving is wretched, but the return is the best. It's the best oppertunity to catch up, make new memories, and remember the crazy times that were had, which always gives hope for the future.

Next on my list of amazing things I enjoy...
I enjoy meeting new people! I enjoy meeting the people that one day may be a great part of my future. And that is always exciting. Every person you meet has the oppertunity to change you. And in a way, regardless of if you let it happen, they do change you. Friendships are formed, or not formed. You are uplifted or brought down. Sometimes you are humbled and other times people help you create you to be prideful and mean. I'd like to think that one day I will look back and see all the things that people have changed about me. The good, the bad, the hiliarious, and even the awful. I'm dying for that day. I can't wait until I am old and can tell my granchildren about So and So who I met one night while video chatting with an old friend who was away at school, and how So and So pushed me to do amazing things.

I enjoy music. I enjoy lyrics. I enjoy the feelings that come when listening to music. I enjoy the kind of music that makes your eyes swell up with tears, but also make you want to laugh because you are so touched by how sweet and perfect this song is for you when your in time of need.

I enjoy poetry, and literature and books. The words from today will affect the future generations of readers and scholars. When we digitize books and make it so that with a flick of a finger you can read a book my heart aches. Books with real pages, the leather binding, that is all magical and hopefully many generations will come to apperciate.

I enjoy sleeping in till odd hours, getting up and running around, staying up late at night and repeating.

I enjoy sweet oppertunities to watch people. I love the way people interact, and I most definetly love getting away with not being noticed. The sad thing is that when there is a camera about people notice. So capturing the sweet moments of a smile are pressured with a camera. It makes it impossible to show the difference in a smile to someone who doesn't know what to look for.

I adore facial expressions. Each face has the ability to do thousands of different things, and I would love to see every single one of them. Take Virginia, She has a GORGEOUS face. And she makes some super odd expressions. As you can

see she can get a little silly. But that is one of the main reasons I Loooove her.

Friendship, is one of the many things that will be in constant motion. One day you are friends, the next you aren't. Best friends are like siblings you chose. They also have the ability to be gone for years, and the day you are reunited (YEAHHH HOMECOMINGS :] ) it's as if there was never time spent apart.

Well, in conclusion, I am tired. Happy, content, amused, and Sleepy. So one last picture of your favorite humble person and then I am off to bed where my dreams are my reality, and I control the outcome.

Yep, another picture of me.. only I'm showing off my wish necklace (its a small star.)

GOODnight

-Cambrizzle (Emilaaay calls me that.)

People with crazy names = LOVE

I am completely in love with people with crazy names. I in no way have a normal name, and at times it is quite unique, but I met someone named Pendlten and his middle name is Carisle*, which is a totally twawesome name. I met another guy today who had a super bizzare name, but sadly I couldn't even prounounce it without butchering it completely.

Anywho, I am supposed to be taking a nap right now, but alas I am not. Yet, at least. Hopefully I can find the will to lay down and just let my body take control over my mind and its need to run a thousand miles a minute.

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So I ended up passing out for a good 10 minutes, then ran outta the house like a mad person to go to this fireside at church. I enjoy firesides, especially when they serve pie after ( I AM A HUGE PIE FAN.) It was a sweet and short, just the way I like firesides. Firesides on unity are always a big hit, plus it is kinda fun to see how people react to the surrounding people after they are told that they need to be more friendly and warming towards visitors. Which is all good, but it is a trait that needs to be continued into regular use. Which is one of the reasons I Love HELIX YSA ward. We are really good at making sure everyone is welcomed, and said hello to. Which at times can be hard, introducing yourself to strangers can be kind of a daunty task considering that from the time we are little we are told that we shouldn't talk to strangers.

Anyway, its once again night time, and still no sleep. I am all dressed up for bed and no desire to sleep.

TC however is dying for me to put the computer to rest and join him in sweet blissful sleep. He is so demanding, and then when he is asleep he snores like a chainsaw. But he is my cat, and my best friend. The one guy in my life that will never leave me for another girl (he prefers men anyways... :] ) he is faithful and cuddly and next to never complains, unless I forget to feed him. Which I do quite often.

Well I am pretty sure Mr. Sandman is looking for my head to fall gracefully on the pillow and for my conciousness to be lulled into a false sense of reality that which is also known as my dreams.

Ha I have serious isseues this late at night. Goodnight world. Don't rape my sleep schedules ever again please :) tomorrow will be a day full of happiness, or FHE mmm sleep and FHE. I'm thinking I may never get off.. Okay here it goes.

-CamWill. (spencers nickname for me.. I kinda don't like it UNLESS he is the one saying it.)

Things change

This weekend has been filled with much happiness. It's almost crazy how many people were smiling, laughing, and even some tears of joy. Gotta love "Wedding Season". Today I went to my friend Noah's wedding to his gorgeous wife Rhawnie. Me and one of my favorite girls went and it was a gorgeous gorgeous wedding reception. It was simple and elegant, her dress was beyond pretty, and it fit her style perfectly.

Noah is a lucky man and she is a lucky woman. They are such a beautiful couple and I really do wish them all the happiness in the world, because they both deserve it. There arent many couples that I would really say are perfect for each other, but they are definetly among the few. This past few weeks have been nuts. I am actually going to help my friend shoot a wedding in September, which I am completely excited for, so some of my raw talent will be set to good use! Also, work has changed the hours so I now work Tues, Wed, Thurs. And have off the rest. But I work from 2-10pm which is killer.

So a bizarre trend the past few weeks has been people texting me and apologizing for things that I really don't really care about. Things that are in the past, that can't be changed. It's almost un-natural for me to hear they are sorry. Sorry for things that I contriubted to, and was a willing participant. But hey, I can't really do anything about that. Hopefully I can really let go, and give them what they want, even if it is something as small as letting them apologize.

Hmm, so beyond that... I am no longer twitterpaited, because he is now dating one of my really good friends. And I am beyond happy for her and no one is to blame or at fault, and theres no issue so thats always nice. I like that we can all be adults, though I do kind of feel like they are way to concerned with my feelings. In a situation of love, my feelings don't matter, and putting me in the middle makes me uneasy. But I am most definetly amused with the situation. Not only because God works in mysterious and amusing ways, but that they found each other and in this situation, something beautiful will hopefully come of it, because they both deserve it and need it. I'm young and naive at times, so I have plenty of time to figure out my wants and needs, and fix my flaws.

And boy do I have some mighty big flaws. I am emotionally detatched, I like to sleep in till noon, I can be overly patient and willing to please, others come first with me, I don't take the time to consider peoples feelings in alot of the things I do, and I am just insane at times. But at some point they might change, or get worst but I will find someone who is willing to put up with it, and thats all that matters.

Geeze love changes all. It is magical, and wonderful. Sometimes it gets in the way of plans but other times it enhances the senses and makes experiences worth some of the pain. So I think I have a new philosophy on life, "When in doubt, Dance it out." So no more of this self-pity and unhappiness, it's time to dance out my issues. Time to be happy and not let anything get me down.

So on my quest for happiness, I have found a great therapy, that just isn't that amazing on my bank acccount. It is buying goodies from Perpetualkid.com. They are kind of like a gag gift online store.

They sell Everything it seems. One year I bought someone a remote control that was shaped like a gun, and when you pulled the trigger the channel changed. It was awesome. Recently I have bought gum called "freaking unicorn gum" and a Slush Mug (which turns cold drinks to slushee in a matter of minutes without having to go to 7-11 or without a freezer, which is pretty awesome) Also, I have gotten a cassette shaped bag, a wish necklace, and a ninja toothbrush sanitizer. Like I said, ALOT of totally amazing, and awesome things. Oh and when you open the package there is a little finger monster (see above picture) who is eating biodegradable packing peanuts (which is fun to watch dissolve in water)

Such happiness from such frivolous things, But hey I am young aren't I?

Well, the night has gone, and the day has come again. Time to prepare myself, for another amazing day in the love of the only man in my life (THE LORD). Sunday, is the best day.

"Sunday is the golden clap that binds together the volume of the week"-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Well I am headed to bed.. err well a powernap before church. goodnight :)

Can you Believe this heat?

It's like a sauna in my room right now (yes at 940 at night) so you can definetly tell it was hot all day today. Which normally is welcomed but today just wasn't the day for it. Yesterday it was also horribly hot, but thankfully I was at work and was in an AirConditioned building. Oh and on top of that it we had a "tropical" storm, which consisted of some light rain (most parts of the country would call it DRIZZLE) and some gorgeous thunder and some lightning.

Which reminded me of when I was over at my friend Megan's house. I heard thunder and she thought it was her neighbors take out their trash cans... Okay this is the same girl who hasn't ever "felt" an earthquake. We live in Southern Califronia and she has never felt one... I don't even think thats possible! There is like one every other day and sometimes twice a day. But I had heard the thunder and made her run outside to see the lightening. It was awesome.

But back to the heat, it's been HOT!!! Yep, people are all flocking to the beach and staying in their AC-ed houses. Or they are going out "enjoying" it... it's amusing.

So, my friends brother Bjorn teaches Tae Kwon Do at my church to a few friends, and recently we have been trying to get more people to go to it. Sadly yesterday was the first day I got off my butt and actually went. It was AMAZING. Bjorn wasn't there but his daddy was, along with two other very knowlegable Masters in Tae Kwon Do. So, it pretty much whipped my butt! I could keep up which was good, but still I am sore. And tomorrow I plan to go to an optional one just so I can catch up with the people currently going and the ones that have been going for quite some time.

One of the best things ever of the class was getting to choke out Master Danelson. Simply fun. However knowing the risks that could possibly come along with choking someone, I'd really rather not. But it was definetly fun.. in its own weird way.. a good skill to have when dealing with problematic people, like my brother. Or random muggers that roam the streets of San Diego. HA!!

Okay so the whole tae kwon do class was amazing. The instructor, the one me and all the newbies were with, was rediculously funny. In a corny kind way, but master Danelson, He kept winking at us. It was odd. But then when I was paying attention he was only winking at "thats what she said" moments, or whenever he said position, or joked about Woody (forgot his real name but our instructor) being cute but not that cute. It was odd, and after I choked him he was like, geeze that was good then looked up and winked at me... Sooo frickin odd.

OH OH OH!!!! okay so I haven't had anything mentioned that was picture adding worthy. But I haven't really gotten to show you my gorgeous eyes.. and believe me they are GORGEOUSSS!!..

Yep there are thoses puppies.. ---------------->

Okay I have a sort of "sad" look, but that really doesnt matter as long as you get to see the amazingness that is my eyes. At times I wonder what they look like when I'm not paying attention, because I know they look different at all times. This picture just seems to capture my favorite kinda look my eyes have. And I realized I am not a fan of full body photos, However you can do as close of a "close up" that you want. Which is bizzare. I have never been one to have PERFECT skin. For as long as I can remember I have struggled with acne, or redness, but when I see a picture like this, that is straight to the camera with wide eyes and a lack of expression, I really enjoy it.

However, when I smile with my teeth, thats a totally new story. I have the worst GAP thats even possible, I'm pretty sure. However I have had it referred to as "endearing.." YEAH RIGHT! who the heck calls a gap endearing? Okay so there is a picture of my mystical gap. I know right... Freakishly far apart!

At times I feel I have the mouth of a toddler, but then I remember I'm 20 years old, and have no need to be concious about it, considering there are plenty of 20 yr olds out there without teeth, or even worst, rotting teeth.

Okay this blog has gotten huge tonight, So I'm going to end it pretty much here.. Or well here..

I am never ending aparently.

Geeze I wish it was cold.. but fall will come soon enough, and I'll be one step closer to going away for the fall and experiencing Autumn in Little Rock, Arkansas!!!!

-Cambria

Love is definetly in the Air.

Hello gorgeous people! Sundays are some of the best days. At church it was amazing to see all the people there even though many of them were with their families after all it is Father's day. So a couple in my ward just got engaged, and I am beyond happy for them :) I wish them well and can't wait to go to the reception and see them on their happy day. Also, a few other couples have gotten engaged that I am friends with. It is quite nice to see happy people who aren't all over each other like being with someone is going out of style. It is one of thoses things I doubt I will ever get used to. It's almost disguisting how some people have no respect for themselves and are showing off private matters.

Beyond that, I got a new camera so I may be able to now SHOW some of the wonderful things that I see and some of the wonderful people I know.. With possible name changes.. ;)

Random segway.. I went to the fair on friday. It was AMAZING this wonderful band played ( Good Morning Milo ) in the musicpalooza at the San Diego County Fair (Del Mar Fair). Sadly they didn't win but thats life, sometimes judges don't appreciate good music and good fans. But they totally rocked the stage and I got some nice shots of them doing what they do best. The picture above to the left is the lead singer Weston. And below here is the band that consists of Peter, Ivan, Ren (Lauren), Weston, Dallen, and Jonathan. The band beyond rocks and has some amazing songs. And its all Clean music. Which is far and few between now a days. So check them out!

So the Fair was lovely beyond that, the art was gorgeous, the livestock.. well alive. and the food AMAZING. Deep fried klondike bar... Sooo yummy.

Well its about time I head to bed, I have a doctors appointment early in the morning since i popped out my knee cap and its in severe pain.

Until Next time..

Love ya!

Dance, Dance, DANCE!

So today there will be a dance for the SD YSA Confrence!!! Oh yeah guys I'm LDS.
Okay no boo's and hisses please. I promise you, I am normal.. er... Well.... Sane.. ish. Okay so I'm off my rocker. But that doesn't stop my epicness. Yes I am EPIC. Well, today is june gloom like. It's very unlike San Diego. I do believe yesterday it was what I needed, but today? Really? One day is enough for me to get over the majority of things. But there is still some anger left in me...
Hopefully this dance will fix it like duct tape. Oh how that fixes EVERYTHING. Especially the silver type. Gotta love me some duct tape.
Today has consisted of :

• Waking up to take out the trash. (this has become a pattern that I REALLY don't like.)
• Taking a shower. ( to feel clean from taking out the trash (: )
• Calling around to find a ride for tonight (I broke my car.. alternator is out :( )
• Running up to Kaiser (THE DEVIL OF ALL HOSPITALS) for mom's meds.
• Getting $$ from ATM for tonight.
• Coming home and crashing on the couch.

And that's where today is. So I noticed that this man and woman were signing to each other. The sad thing is I like easedropped* on their conversation. Which is really easy when you know sign language (or some of it.) I personally don't think they were fluent because the guy knew most of the signs where the girl was failing miserably. But earlier she was talking about how she's the MOH for her friends wedding. Which pretty much brought back some less then pleasant feelings. But when the girl left she tripped and hit her arm against the door frame pretty hard. Soo that made up for it. In a sad sadistic way.

So today I've noticed I am MEAN. A friend was asking for guy advice and every thought I had was to in some way make him pay for the way he was making her feel. Which is not right, though it would make her feel better in the moment. Me and my friend Megan have a thing we say when boys hurt us or our friends... "cut off their shlongs and set them on fire, babe and everything will be all right." Now if we were to actually practiced what we preached there would be a whole lot of shlongless men and quite a few assult charges. Could you imagine that? I know epic idea for the bitter and hatred filled women we all know and love (myself included... ;) ) Oh I kinda talked to Becky. She texted me to see if we were still on for Saturday piano lessons. Which of course I'm not since I will be attending the confrence. So I was extremely erked that she could text me and act as if she didn't make a life altering decision that she in no way included her FORMAL MOH. So I sorta brought it up after she asked me how I was. (brain at this point was screaming how the heck do you think I am.. I was just lied to by one of my BEST friends..) So I told her I was pissed with her. But then a few texts later added that I wasn't pissed as much as I was hurt and upset. And Asked her if she was busy later this week. To which I recieved a reply we can go to dinner or something.

I don't necessarily think dinner is going to solve anything. I unlike her husband *shudders* am not one to refrain from making a scene in public. What do I have to lose.. a little bit of pride? Yeah right! I've got enough to fuel the world. If my pride could be measured in a liquid it would cover the world a few times over. Embarassing me is a hard thing to do. But I may take her up on that dinner date of sorts. Except I couldn't eat so we will probably go sit in the park so that if I get too upset I can leave.

Well, it's about time for me to leave for the dance, or at least get ready for it since I'm going over to my friends girlfriend's house... (I am too awesome of a friend for this haha)

Hope your lives aren't as much drama filled as mine.

See ya on the flipside.

Really now?

about.Okay since no one knows about this blog, or well at least I don't think people do..

I've been upset the past day or so. Nothing that really concerns me in a sense but still it's one of thoses things that hurt your pride and your trust.

So Becky got engaged a while back and broke it off later because of things that are not my place to talk about. Personally I was beyond proud that she would stand up for her self and not take the crap and pressure she was under. Things were pretty rough at first for her and I totally understand that. Breaking off an engagement is a huge deal and it comes with many trials and strains on friendships and relationships and just your own mental judgement is at stake.

Well it had been about a month or so and things seemed to be dying down on the ex-fiance front. And then all of a sudden on Facebook there it is. Becky and Anton are married. Well look at that folks... a wedding that no one knew about. Okay it's kind of eloping. No big deal. Especially if you spent you time on helping plan a wedding and planning a bridal shower, OH and your money on an ugly dress you'll never wear and things for a shower that you will never use. And to add insult to injury you weren't called before to say "Hey we are getting married" or after "hey sorry you weren't invited but we got married." nope. You found out Via FACEBOOK. Okay that's not true. You found out through a flurry of text messages asking how the wedding was and why no one else was told. Or when it happened, or why they have been telling everyone they haven't been dating.

I have a reason to be upset and even if I didn't I can be upset without a reason. It's like being backstabbed and lied to. Betrayal is a great word that describes how I feel. It's as if the time I spent helping was spat on. And being a slapped in the face. At the same time...

So in all I've lost one of my best friends. I doubt I can ever trust her again, and my lacking in confidence in her decisions don't help at all. And regardless of her reasoning behind being sneaky and lying it still hurts. I wish I could say things don't change between friends when one gets married. But we all know that's a lie. Well I suppose I should just go suffer in silence... I'm going to wait until she calls me and tells me herself... Facebook just doesn't cut it.

Byes :)